I've fallen apart completely as a result of my now almost month long bout with illness. The kidney stone was removed surgically a week ago and now I'm trying to get back to my physical, artistic and musical routines. The illustration below was rendered digitally by Cristiano Siqueira.
The disintegration has been both mental and physical.
I've just been through the first major illness in my life. A trip to the ER and two surgeries within three weeks. I'm 66 year old, so I've had a hell of a good run, but my aura of invincibility has been shattered. The surgeries dramatically changed my mindset. I know now that I'm vulnerable. The frailty of old age is no longer an abstraction.
Everything came to a halt during my illness. I stopped playing and writing music and sketching and painting. I gave up my physical regimen. No yoga, bicycle riding or weight lifting. All I did for three weeks was take pain killers, babysit the grandkids for 8 hours a day and sleep.
So, now, I have to start over.
And I have to start over in the face of the reality that I'm going to have much more serious surgery in another month.
While I was being treated for the kidney stone, I went through 3 CAT scans. The radiologist found what appears to be an early stage tumor in my appendix. So, I got lucky.
Don't know yet if the tumor is malignant. My surgeon says the probability is that it is not. Had this tumor not been discovered, I would not have known about it until the tumor became malignant and the appendix ruptured, spreading that malignancy to every organ in my abdomen. That would have led to a very quick death.
So, I have to fight my way back to health and fitness, get my daily regimens going again, and then go through serious surgery to remove the appendix and a small section of bowel above it.
After that, I'll have a month long struggle to recover again.
The good news is no colostomy bag and I'll retain normal bowel function.
Three more weeks of babysitting the grandkids and I'll be off for the summer. Not the way I'd hoped to spend most of the summer, but life throws curve balls and we must adjust.