Sometimes, when I'm riding the subway or walking in the city, I pass a beautiful young woman. I stare at her like the old fool that I am, and I'm always a little miffed when she doesn't look back.
I can remember, not so long ago, when the young women stared at me. My hair still bore color. My skin was not translucent and dotted with age spots. My body was still slim and muscular.
Especially, I stare at the young Chinese and Filipino women. In my mind, I'm still the dashing young man Myrna loved. An incredibly beautiful woman loved me! I almost have to restrain myself from screaming at pretty Asian girls.
“I'm not just a beat up, fat old man!” I want to scream. “You should have seen my wife! She was prettier than you!”
On occasion, I can tell that the young women are annoyed by my attention. I don't know my place. I should be chasing after old women.
For a few months, I tried the online dating sites again. But, I couldn't manage to gin up some enthusiasm for the old women in the pictures returned by my search. Their bodies were obviously breaking down. Their faces showed the signs of a lifetime of struggling.
When I was a young man, I reveled in lust. I chased after women because they were beautiful and sexy. And it worked! Sooner or later I found a woman who loved being chased because she was beautiful and sexy. Later on, we got around to actually knowing one another and, voila, love!
The yearning for a beautiful young woman hasn't subsided. Well, young now means somewhere around 40. If I had a fortune, I'd be ripe for the taking by some scheming young woman.
All I can do is look, and hope that the young things don't get so offended that they call the cops. One young Japanese woman on the internet dating site almost did, so offended was she that an old fart like me sent her a note of praise. She threatened to notify every authority that she could summon that I was a dirty old man who was bothering her.
It's only going to get worse. Myrna, where have you gone? You've left me out here all alone.
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