I woke up at 3 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep. Wrote it off to anxiety about job interviews. I have three today! And then, I remembered today is the second anniversary of Myrna’s death. Two years without you, honey!
What a struggle it has been to live, even to want to live, without Myrna. Without my wife, I am so diminished. I still love you, Myrna.
When I told Myrna what the doctor had told me, that she would die within a very short time, she said:
“I can’t die. I have too much to do.”
God help me to get through this day. Myrna, I sure could have used your comfort and your strength last night. First interview at a media giant. Wish me luck! Second interview at an agency. The third interview is the preliminary phone screening.
The picture at the top was taken during one of our trips to Portland, Oregon to visit Myrna’s family and friends.
Everybody wants me to recover from Myrna’s death. I know that they mean well. My friends and family see me suffering and struggling, and they are trying to drag me back into the world of the living.
But, I do not want to let go of my beautiful, brilliant wife. I want only to be with her again. Myrna, I pray every day that you have found peace. Help me, honey if you can to get through this day.